15 Months of Dreams

For about a year and a half, I recorded as many dreams as I could. I had heard that when you start recording, you will begin to remember them more and more, and I found that to be true. I wish I had carried on. Perhaps I’ll start doing it again - this time with google.docs instead of Evernote. Evernote, by the by, is the reason for this note: so I can get everything I care about off of it so I never have to use it again. Doesn’t hold a candle to Google Drive.

Anyway, I would record these still in bed and half asleep. They are rife with typos, some of which are so bad I can’t even tell what I was trying to say, and I don’t remember some of these dreams enough to expound. Some of what I write is hopelessly vague, as even recording just after waking wasn’t fast enough to remember any more than an outline, feeling, silhouette of what had taken place in my sleeping mind just moments before.

1/23/13

Grandma shirly has a date. Singing guy with guitar. I'm stealing.

1/25/13

What you talkin bout willis? he's dying. college nights. Drugs, prescriptions, jobs. Lost my ID number to get into the safe. Women. Dairy Queen.

1/31/13

In wizard of oz ish land. Wheel of time. Gandalf. Rooster teeth wonder the difference and spot battery, extra 40 mana. assault tower and kill grunts, who we then talk to as zombies.

2/5/13

Star Wars. Much like Enders game, the enemy has almost reached ‘up’, we wait and prepare

2/9/13

Ran out of gas on the way to school. Muddy roads, dean cones by to help, then mom and Harper.

2/10/13

Flight. Defense game. Gathered around a lake. Later. Dad Ryan and sisters are brainwashed and trying to kill me,

2/20/13

_____ and I are alone in a room getting ready to sleep with each other. She came onto me. She says, 'btw, idk if you saw yesterday, but my sexual partners were varied.' As though she was proud. We start arguing when I notice through the second story window that a train was coming off the tracks and starting to destroy houses. Dads house in emporia is just on the other side of the growing wreck - I can see it but not get to it. I guessed that hundreds of lives had already been lost.

I forget how, but I manage to get over it but the train has pretty much stopped anyway. The train had looked like it took out the house but its just damaged. Dad and Grammy are inside and fine. Dad is acting like it wasn't a big deal - like he barely noticed.

The train had been pulling a chapel looking building behind it (on purpose?) and was the cause of the derailment. We went to see it and its actually still in tact but damaged. It was a building entirely made out of puzzle pieces, now with several missing, and for some reason was somehow supposed to be dedicated or whatever to either emporia or lindsborg. Kinda like a museum to draw tourism. The priest looking guy who was going to run it was inside and totally fine somehow, and also a pretty normal dude. I got to talking to him about the wreck. He seemed only disappointed that the building got damaged.

3/16/13

At a lake near Kansas City somewhere in the woods with Sara and Danielle and a few others. Somehow get stranded. Decide to run 50 miles to Kansas City for keys or whatever. I run for a while. Realize something and somehow have someone puck me up or something and take me to my car. I go back to the lake to collect things I forgot. I then try and find them running on the road.

Later, at lindsborg stadium I think. Family is there. Erica says she loves me and is worried about me. Dad says something.. Storm is coming.

3/16/13

Dream. Regency place parking lot. _____ and I, and eventually everyone else. It becomes ‘space gravity’, at night. Everyone plays with floating asteroids.

3/16/13

At mom and hapers, trying to be civil. Always avoiding. Something is blamed on me. Later, in kc. Stealing something from a rednecks house. I run away. Jump on a train from a bridge to escape.

3/20/13

Either dad or I's birthday, glowing, on some estate in the country. Dads coming to see me with his gf? Bear kind of chases me to gazebo, but I'm not too orried about it. Lots of dogs, all black labs. Smoky and dusty. Later, more people arrive whom I don't know, many of whom have their birthdays too.

3/28/13

A woman and I wonder around. We seem to be married. Nana shows up and treats her like her child. Woman's name danyris.

4/12/13

At dads house helping him clean. Throwing stuff out the window on 2nd floor and making a pile outside to throw away. Dad gets mad at me for some reason.

5/9/13

Something about Facebook, editing videoed, started outgat was worried. Just made it through something. Then I goes ms Lysell talks a lot. rana Ross what's in the dreams. Bloody. building.

6/17/13

Someone am I staying at dads house with him for the night. Dad gets mad about something I think. Out on the town. People try to kill us. Abandoned hotel thing we help clean or something. Cute girl anfb4 pr 5 of is talk in a room. I find out one of my new frends is some kind of celebrity.

6/25/13

In a huge house which almost feel like an entire village under one roof. I think davin is showing it off to me cause he just moved in. Then I find out my grandma shirly is living there also. I walk with her through it talking with her. She says she wants to go to a certain place a ways away. After walking towards it for a while we end up at the top of a long tree trunk that is tilted to a 45 degree angle which you have to shimmy down to get to the place she wants to go. The trunk has a circumference of only about 15 inches. I feel bad and never would have agreed to go this way of I knew she has to do this. She starts shimmying down. After maybe 20 feet she falls for like 7 seconds before hitting a roof and rolling to the ground, assumed dead.

7/10/13

In a car with mom whle I think da is driving. Mom whispers that she thinks she's going to die soon but is calm and ready. I'm tired or something. I think we're in Wichita. They drop me off at where I'm staying with Erica and heather I think and in the dream I wake up sometime later and I realize that I didn't say bye cause I fell asleep or something when they dropped me off. I freak out and look for them. I think I ended up finding her. I don't remember if she was still alive when I got there.

For some reason I run into Barry after that. In still really shaken up. He's playing gta5 and is showing me a cheat program where he can clip into big underground caves that reminded me of mine craft.

7/?/13

We're in moms house being attacked by aliens. Megan and I get together. Nikki and heather are there. Never saw the aliens but it was scary.

9/8/13

On an island with Crawford and thayne. Jetskiing, trying to convince thayne not to leave. He's upset for some reason. We convince him.

9/9/13

Some type of gameshow like survivor or bog brother. _____ and I are broken up still. Moriarty is there and there's a mot of death and destruction.

10/5/13

Dads backyard in emporia, climbing trees with Erica heather and mom. Doing something to the bark. Suddenly, all of the bark kind of pops off and falls. We're happy for some reason.

Then there's a big family gathering at dads. He gets mad at me for some reason.

3/1/14

I think in Kansas City. I realize I work the next day and I don't have a car. Chris, brendon , playing Xbox live with someone I don't know, some kind of 1 v 1 platformer Mario game. 2 maze-like rooms, one on top of the other. Entire level is spinning counter clockwise, you have to run through the top level and make it to the bottom level as the whole thing flips over so you don't fall off while they have to do the same on the bottom. Gravity is focussed in between the two rooms. I don't have a place to stay that night so I need to ask him of I can stay over, but I run into Chris and someone at Walmart. Then Brendan comes with crazy dyed hair. Davin shows up with Kat. I hug davin.

3/27/14

I, with a large group of like 50 people, mostly younger teenagers, were hiding from some government agency camping in a park. We were trying to go unnoticed. I think the government mostly wanted Kristin Stewart for some reason, but we all were like some kind of 'resistance'. Starbuck’s boyfriend was also there. On the last night before we were going to leave to find a new place, me and the boyfriend noticed a car pull up while most people were sleeping. We got in a car and started driving across the park quickly, I think trying to find Kristin. We thought it was probably a bad person trying to sneak in. Boyfriend ended up flipping the car in the park grounds but we were fine. We crashed right by where jake Wilken was trying to say goodbye to his girlfriend or something on a bench on a hill. We felt bad for interrupting and I think tried to convince them that it wasn't safe and to come with us.

3/30/14

Danny and davin and maybe Jesse show up at my back door one day in the country to talk about some friend who had passed away.

4/16/14

I think I was an older woman in this dream. I just remember being trapped in a big dark mansion with 6 or so other people. At one point a huge bear walks up and we pretend to be dead. I can feel the bear sniff my neck. Finally, he walks away.

4/25/14

I have no brakes as I take an obmb ramp on highway. I slow a little but it's crazy icy I find out. I barely miss a truck and take the off ramp. I was clips to hitting g something slaw. E break.

Then another dream about danny, sarah and kaya at moms driveway. About 15 other people are there too. Bitter cold. I'm holding kaya. I'm hiding, waiting to ambush people in the tree line.

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